Friday, April 26, 2013

Rape Rant



A lot of countries imprison sexual offenders. Some countries even proclaim a death penalty for rape. Not India. They fuss and create a spectacle of an incident through the media, but in the end, they run free. After the Delhi gang rape, the Indian Government passed an ordinance in which a death penalty is applied only when the rape leads to the death of the victim of persistent vegetative state. Wow. So basically they're measuring the intensity of the damage done. It's not something that can be measured! Either way, it's still horrific and traumatic.


Only a few sexual assaults are reported. How many unknown, unreported incidents? They happen every day. In not only India, but other countries. Quite a few counties take extreme measures against rape. India has begun framing laws only now. Really? REALLY? Even if the required laws are frame(if ever), it is the job of the offenders to get their perverted thoughts in line. I think what India is really afraid of is that once they declare a death penalty for rape, the population of India will decrease considerably. That wouldn't be that bad after all. Just saying.


P.S. The above words may be a little harsh, but that is my opinion and life is harsh.




Update from Sam: For the record, I don't agree with all of that up there.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Something

The clouds have shadows,
Long and dark,
Sheathing the earth,
In their noon-time dusk.

The moon has a glow,
Low and shining,
Guiding the lovers,
Off on their horse.

The wind has billows,
Loud and tumultuous,
Shielding the playing child,
As his mother cries.

The sea has waves,
Soft and sweet,
A soothing balm,
Cleansing all sorrows.


~Sam

Something impulsive I came up with watching the clouds cover the town, on my flight. Just writing for the sake of writing. It isn't very good, but it's been a while.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

What is it about the rain that makes you remember?

Our first guest post! This is by a friend of mine (Sam's), the aforementioned Vowel-less. Enjoy yourself with this wonderful piece on the most wonderful things of all-rain and memories.

Also available on her own blog: http://doubt-thou-the-stars-are-fire.blogspot.in/2014/06/what-is-it-about-rain-that-makes-you.html
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I am sitting by the window. It is raining and I can feel the drops of water on my face. As a drop trickles down my face and falls on my hand, memories of a time long forgotten, a childhood, not that far back yet so unreachable, flood my mind. A sudden flashback of running through the front garden and getting drenched in the rain in one of the many old British-style houses that I lived in fills my mind vividly. Then another image, of my mother shouting at me asking me to come back.
What is it about rain that always makes you sift through all those past memories that in the humdrum of daily life become repressed in your subconscious?
Hailstones! The initial excitement of listening to the exaggerated pitter-patter on the roof as tiny lumps of ice fall on the ground. Running to the front verandah to collect the ice faster than my brother. Image after image of those days, long past. Of innocence, long gone. Of hope, long forgotten. Memories.
A song comes to my mind. The song that was playing in the background when I shared an umbrella with my first crush. I can almost feel my heart thundering, the way it had thundered for those few precious stolen moments. Anticipation tugs at my heart. And a certain melancholy. A sudden yearning to go back into those days of sweet innocence, of glorious horizons and endless possibilities, of happy dreams. Falling asleep near my mother. Playing with my brother. Not knowing the feeling of apprehension. Where future is a bright happy place.
What is it about rain that makes you remember?

~Vowel-less

Rain, a cut and a bandaid.

Darkened tar on the roads
Offsets the bright fallen leaves.
The cold wind hurls rain at my face
Through space and sorrow and fluid green trees.
A cut and a conversation are the cherry on top,
And a bandaid and a childhood cure make my joy complete.

(Yes, I have an irrational fascination with small wounds and bandaids.)

~Sam

Friday, April 12, 2013

Open Doors: A Short Story

I wrote a story, I wrote a story! As you've probably figured out from the title of this post. Whatever.
So I found out a couple of things while doing this: a) It's much more difficult to write a story than to think of one and b) My grammar is god-awful.
The story is slightly philosophical, slightly cynical. The idea is basically how a little bit of corruption can spoil a really good thing, how one (possibly) bad person can spoil a town. 
Also, just a note: the commas look like periods in this font, but the capitals should allow you to figure out what it's supposed to be. We'll work on finding a better font, though this one is just so amazing. :/


Okay. Here you go.



The doors were all open when I walked into town.

The doors were all open when I walked into town, and so were all the shutters, and windows, and every opening of every kind. I had just entered town with my suitcase and my backpack, and I was astounded. It was a pleasant day, yes, but never had I seen such a multitude of open doors.

A woman walked by, smiling at me with twinkling eyes. She seemed hospitable enough, so I stopped her: “Why are all the doors open?”

“Well, to let the breeze in, of course. It’s such a pleasant day out, isn’t it?” she replied, as if surprised by my question.

“But…aren’t people worried of theft, abduction…crime?” I was confused. Surely they couldn’t be that oblivious to the dangers of the world.

She laughed. “Well of course not! We don’t have that kind of thing here. We trust each other. We’re all happy here, all friends.”

___

It had been a month since I’d moved in, with the help of the lady I’d met on my first day. During the first week of my stay, the windows had remained shut, but soon I found myself living like the locals: doors open.The people of Trustville, as I’d taken to calling the town in my head, were friendly and helpful, and had enveloped me into their little community as easily as waves envelope stones on the beach. I had friends, I had a job: I was content.

It had not been easy getting to that position. In my first week, I had bought the first ever lock sold in the history of Trustville, and what a task it had been to find that lock. Then I had tried to “rescue” my neighbour’s daughter when a stranger approached her in the park: although the stranger was, in fact, unknown to the family, no one else had seemed to find it worrisome for a child to be alone with a stranger, and I had received nothing by odd looks for my pains. When I tried to explain to the child’s mother what a danger the stranger could have been, she looked at me odd, and when I tried to take it upon myself to teach the child not to speak to strangers, she stopped speaking to me altogether. That is not to say that she didn’t trust me: she still left her door open, her child running free. But for the first time in the history of Trustville, someone had thought ill of another, and it was not a good omen.

I started learning the ways of the town then. I learned that strangers were not looked on with suspicion: they were humans, just like the rest of us, and they were expected to behave as humans. Children didn’t learn the concept of not taking candy from strangers; in fact, some old ladies went around with goodies in their handbags meant just for the little delights they found on the street. This worked in a way as a self-fulfilling prophecy: children grew up in an environment of trust and goodness, and evolved into good and trusting adults. Because people were expected to behave in a trustworthy manner, they refrained from the sort of incivilities and crimes that plagued every other place I’d been to. It was a strange town, for sure, but it was a good town. I was in awe of how good people could be if they wanted to, and I was content. What geniuses these people were! What paragons of human development!

___

But people cannot be content for long, can they? When I looked back on this incident later-an incident I am ashamed of to this day-I imagine the people of Trustville as Adam and Eve before the Fall- innocent, trusting. I, however, was a man of the earthly world, and when temptation is put in the path of such a man, he falls.
It was a tiny thing, to begin with. I had made a new friend in town, and he had a collection of baseball cards. And what a collection it was! First editions, special editions: it was more than I had ever even dreamed of owning. It was a hobby of mine, collecting such cards, and it was over this hobby that we had actually connected. We pored over the cards for days on end, exclaiming and shouting in delight.

One day, walking by his house, I saw the cards on a table next to the door. Smiling to myself about the silliness of keeping such a precious belonging in such a state, and then at my own silliness at thinking that the people of Trustville would do anything else, I walked on. No one would steal anything here.

The next day, the cards were still there. And the next, and the next. No one would steal anything here.

Every day I passed the cards, and every day my smile thinned a little. They were there, right there. He wasn’t using them, he didn’t love them as much as I did, or else he would have kept them safer. He didn’t deserve them. In fact, he deserved to lose them for being so lax.

No one would steal anything here.
___

He thought he’d lost them. He was the most organized man on the planet, but he thought he had misplaced the cards. Never did a more sinister thought cross his mind. He looked at me apologetically, sorry that I wouldn't have the pleasure of seeing them anymore. What did he know?

___


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A diamond ring was lost next. It was beautiful, a pink heart-shaped diamond on a gold ring, some silly fool’s engagement ring. It called to me the moment I saw it. She didn’t deserve it. She didn’t want it, or else she would have kept it safer.

An engraved tobacco pipe. A beautiful umbrella. An antique pocket-watch. More and more things began to go missing, and it was a long while before people’s suspicions were aroused. A long, long while- long enough for me to make plans to get out of there. No one suspected the new guy, the stranger, the first suspect in any civilized, cynical society. What fools these people were!

___


Suspicion was slow to enter the hearts of the people of Trustville, and change was even slower. It did happen, though. Doors began to be shut, locks became easier to find. There was a meeting about what was to be done, how the perpetrator was to be found. The poor souls, they had no idea what they were doing.
And still, no one suspected the new guy.

___


There was a box I’d had my eye on for a while. It was tiny, a miniature treasure chest, studded with semi-precious stones. It lived on a window-sill in the house of one of Trustville’s oldest citizens, the father of the lady I’d met on my first day. The things I had taken-not stolen, taken, it wasn’t stealing, they were sitting there for the taking, for any passer-by to pick up, it wasn’t anything wrong to take it, I valued it more than they did-had all been near the door so far. This one was in what I presumed was the living room, but I thought I’d be okay. The lady visited her father in the evenings; in the afternoons he indulged in a siesta, and as old people are wont to be, he was slower in adapting to the change taking place in Trustville. His doors were still open and unlocked. I thought I could get away fine, and I planned to leave town immediately after that. My bags were packed, for these folks were becoming smarter, planning for cameras and the like.

___

I strolled down the street leisurely after lunch, observing the scene as was my habit. People smiled less these days; their gaze was shiftier than before. I smiled to myself. Now they were behaving like people.

I walked through the open door, went through the hall to the living room. It was right there. Probably the most precious item in the house, and it was sitting on the window-sill, tempting passers-by with its twinkling gaze. That old fool didn’t deserve it.

I wandered over to the table, picked it up. Still engrossed in the beauty of the little box, I turned to leave…

…and looked up to see the woman. I suppose she’d come earlier to visit her father, or perhaps the fates decided a life of crime wasn’t for me, or perhaps my own subdued conscience had chosen the right path and delayed my plans, knowing I would run into her. It doesn’t matter why now, all that matters is what. I looked at her, and she looked at me. Not in fright, or even surprise, after that first moment. She just looked with…pity. Like she was looking at the most hopeless soul on the planet, one whom no one could save. She said nothing, quietly turned around and walked up the stairs to her waiting, trusting father.

___

I walked like a zombie back to my house, the treasure chest still in my hand. Only when I reached did I realize I had it, numbly looking down at my hand for my key-I had started relocking my door again, loudly proclaiming that people couldn’t be trusted anymore, not even here. I went inside and put the box down. 

And then I turned around and left, my entire horde left right there.

The damage had been done, though.
The doors were all open when I’d walked into town.
Not a single door was open when I walked out.




~Sam

PS: Yes, it's really long for a blogpost. My apologies. 


Thursday, April 11, 2013

Crush

About a crush I once had on someone I thought I knew a long time ago; testimony to the staggering number of things human beings can just Get Over.



It’s a typical teenage situation.

Actually, why restrict it? It’s a typical love situation. I like a boy. He’s perfect, slender, smirking, sexy-voiced, joking and nice. I’m just about twice his size, shy and awkward. He’s the town’s darling. Most people don’t know my name.

He has a girlfriend. He’s a devoted boyfriend, even long distance. Nice girl that I am, I decide not to make a move (as if I could).  I’ve always respected The Girlfriend.

He has issues with his girlfriend. Suddenly, everything changes. I…feel a twinge of happiness at the news. Me. Nice, kind, me, who is more proud of her nice nature than just about anything else (nice, I said, not modest). I go from waiting to move on, for my hormones to find someone else to latch onto, to wanting him to return the feelings. I go from fantasising about imaginary guys (or Hugh Jackman) to fantasising about him. I go from mere crushing to actually, truly, viscerally wanting to date someone, an unprecedented incident.

I plan an entire date in my head. I wanted a formal, actual date, so I wear a dress. He’s wearing a shirt, a smile, a funny tie, and those twinkling eyes. Somehow I end up ahead of him and hold the door open for him, welcoming him in with a curtsey and a teasing smile. We sit, talk, eat, laugh. He walks me home. The city is beautiful, our conversation easy. Happy. We kiss. I’m trying to perfect the scene in my head when a friend nudges me. I startle out of my trance with an internal sigh.

We chat online. A normal, banal conversation. My heart stutters every time he replies. My friends laugh at my dramatic silliness. A goofy smile spreads across my face every time I think of him-when the thought isn’t breaking my heart. When did I become such a lovesick puppy?

He doesn’t like me that way. I wish I had the courage to put myself out there and tell him I liked him. I finally understand just how much that takes. The fear of rejection is overpowering. So is the doubt. For all I know, he and his girlfriend have patched up and gone back to being the beautiful couple they always appeared to be. If I put myself out there, would he, could he like me? I don’t want to jeopardize what little friendship we have. But I want him.

I want him.

     
[It went away.]
                                                                                        
 ~Sam

Saturday, April 6, 2013

Overcomplicated

Why are things so unnecessarily complicated? Why is it such an issue for me to skip a day of work to visit a friend in a nearby city? Why do pointless societal rules stop me from following my dreams? Why do they dictate aspects of my life which concern no one but me?
We live for so little time. Why can't we just do what we want, when it doesn't hurt anyone? Why do such tiny, basic things have to have so much thought involved, so many ramifications?

Why can't we just live?

~Sam

Liberty, my ass.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Sometimes, I'm afraid of having the wrong opinion.

I don't mean wrong as in unacceptable, because the point of opinions is that they're subjective and therefore in all probability will be unacceptable to someone. I mean misinformed, or uninformed or underinformed. And because you're never quite fully informed, your opinion is always going to be one-sided (which comes with subjectivity, of course, but still, you want to be as objective as possible) and incomplete.
I think that's partly why I'm so indecisive.


~Sam